On Sunday, we will celebrate Father’s Day.
This will be Brayden’s second Father’s Day as a dad and we can’t wait to celebrate him.
When I was young I always told myself that when I had kids, they would have a better dad than I did. Dads are supposed to be constant and reliable and my kids would have that for sure.
Well, I was wrong. Luckily, I had a constant mom growing up so I knew how to be a constant mom AND dad for Charlee and Tillie.
I never realized how hard that role was exactly until I was in my mom’s shoes doing it too. As a kid, I remember questioning myself. I wondered why I wasn’t good enough for a dad.
I had a dad, of course, but he wasn’t constant. I craved constant. At 14 I got my constant but I didn’t realize it at first and I did everything in my power to push it away.
My constant and reliable came as a stepdad with two step sisters.
At 14, you’re more than likely a queen of drama so I was no different. Pushed, pushed, and pushed at that constant even though it’s all I ever wanted. Over the years I stopped pushing and now at 25, I couldn’t be more thankful for him.
Still constant and reliable. That’s what my kids deserve and what they have always deserved.
Charlee missed out on it for the first 26 months of her life and Tillie for the first 15 months of hers.
Since then though they’ve had constant, reliable, loving, and every other word describing the type of dad you want your kids to have.
My heart started skipping beats the first day I watched Brayden with the girls and has probably skipped around 10,000 beats since that day.
I’m so glad Charlee and Tillie will not ever have to question why they weren’t good enough for a dad.
Their constant came into their lives a lot quicker than mine did and for that, I am forever grateful.