At the end of a super hard and exhausting Sunday as I stood there with my face buried in your neck, while you had your arms wrapped around me, I felt safe.
I felt loved. All the good things people want to feel I felt.
As I thought back on the week, I realized you made me feel all those good things every time I needed it.
On Wednesday, my day started out embarrassing and difficult. I am not one that likes to be embarrassed or one that gets over embarrassment quickly.
There was even some fear on that day, but you made me feel safe. More importantly, you made me feel like Charlee and Tillie were safe.
On Saturday, I watched you cringe at the idea of having the girls help you make brownies. Not because you did not want to do it with them but because toddler hands and food grosses you out.
You did it anyway. There were a few mishaps like, Charlee sticking her hand in the powder as soon as she started pouring it into the bowl and Tillie dumping the oil all over her instead of into the bowl.
But, without fail, we had brownies that night.
As I watched you feed the girls their brownie sundae so I could eat mine ,I felt loved and knew they did, too.
Sunday came and I woke up to deal with things I did not want to have to deal with.
It was like punch after punch from negative things. I did not want to even get out of bed.
I did and we took the girls to the park then went to dinner with Kelsey and Thomas.
Of course, being at the park watching the girls be happy made me feel tons better.
The salsa and queso at dinner helped, too.
By the time the girls were asleep I felt defeated and incredibly exhausted.
You wrapped your arms around me and all those feelings went away. I stood there so long you ended up asking if I was sleeping but I was not.
I was just soaking up all those good feelings.
There are so many days I could write about where you made the girls and me feel all good things, but this would turn into a book.
So, for now, we will leave it at those few examples.
If there is one thing in this world that lasts forever, I sure hope this is it.